brenda ♥

been a year

2010-10-20T22:20:00.002+08:00

it had been a year for leaving my blog away. well, the reason is obvious
and the reason for me being back again is definitely more obvious
just feel like writing, again.

and my life is now back to like last year again, same routine every day
days seem passing so fast and without noticing, here i am, lying in my bed again for sleep
except that the feeling is not same anymore, i didnt feel empty but now i do feel empty
feel like im just wasting the precious time of my life, but what can i do but this?
i got no choice, cause i had tried the best

yes, the difference of my feelings is because of i had tried the good one
and now it has gone, there is no way feeling the same way again, ever probably
i asked a million times why this will happen to me, now i got the answer, and it is me
no one is wrong but me
i did the wrong thing
when i had the best, i thought i would have it forever, so i never thought i might losing it completely one day, SO i never prepared for this, SO i was wrong, SO im having this.
i really thought that i was having that forever, FOREVER.

however, deep inside im thinking differently, sure i am, who am i fooling with?
my friends and family treating me really good recently, which i feel happy with
but down deep inside my heart, who am i fooling with again? everyone knows that

there is no way im going to hurt myself again, i shouldnt do this anymore
im already heart broken. no more heart for me to break
what i do now is just oppose to what my heart wants actually
i choose not to confront anymore and run away as far as i can but sometimes i want to do it oppositely
it is so hard for me

i choose to close my eyes, close my ears, shut my mouth up.
hope that this time will last

fun run!

2009-11-22T20:10:00.002+08:00

yeah! we joined marathon XD
22-11-2009, unforgettable day =)

randomm one

2009-11-20T21:56:00.002+08:00

一剪梅！

2009-11-20T20:50:00.003+08:00

kae xin, zhi yun and hooi peng

i know the video is like keep shaking, cause i was laughing till almost dead

DEDICATED TO AI LYN!!!

2009-11-20T19:33:00.002+08:00

exammm

2009-11-07T11:01:00.002+08:00

this exam is the most terrible one i ever had, im like totally not in the mood for it!
but LUCKILY, i was sick! hahahaha
syiok tiok!
i skipped 2days exam, and going to skip one more day. shhhhhhhhh =P
damn excited for it, hahaha
siao liaoo

planning a lot of plans after exam, but maybe only can fulfill few, haiz
i don't know when is my flight, hope that it can postpone to end of this month
i don't want to go shanghai this yearrrrrr, so boring there!
and I'll definitely miss someone so so so so so badly when i'm there
haiz, one month! grr, so long for me
but i cant change anything, now just hoping i can online at there**** =)

30th =D

2009-10-31T01:47:00.001+08:00

i dont wanna blog anymore, not that often maybe
dont know
things are going perfect now, i wish the time could just stop now for us =)
i just want to say, I LOVE YOU <3

date <3

2009-10-18T20:18:00.004+08:00

today went to gurney with Roy and Nireji =)
fetched Nireji from her house, my bebe was like so happy to see her, now bebe's belongs to Nireji, NOT ME ANYMORE, HNGG
reached there and met up with Roy at coffee bean
had lunch at sushi king, Nireji kept complaining for being our lightbulb =P it's okay one, haha
we were your parents what, heh

after lunch went to mega q to find Shaun, he seemed familiar to me, don't know why
went to coffee bean again there, was damn weird lah the atmosphere =//
so, Roy and i decided to let them alone, heh
but we also got spied on them a while =D
then we went to popular to buy exercise book, were looking at those books for so long, =DD
he kept refusing to buy chemistry's exercise book, hngg, kept giving excusessssss
i failed in this time, nvm

four of us watched 'Surrogates', not bad also actually
i thought it would be quite boring so i were ready to sleep one, but quite chi kek, heh, nicer than i thought
i found out that i was so hang fuk man, can hold hands with two people, hahah
after movie, met up with Ash and another i dont know his name, oopss, went to kim gary
Nireji and i went out a while to see Lala, there were packed, and i was way too short to see her, but i did see her too =)
oopss, i met my husband while dating too, hahaha, hope she won't jealous urhh =P

After kim gary, went to popular, bought a chemistry's exercise book for him finally
wasted so many time in asking him to buy! hmphhh
don't really make me hate biology!
before went back, Roy and i went to toy r us there, some funny things happened there, HAHA

today was great in conclusion, except for some parts, hmm, we all know =/
cheer up, don't feel sad

Forever and Always

2009-10-15T21:13:00.002+08:00

recently i keep repeating two songs, 情歌 and 'Forever and Always'
seems like these two songs are all about breakup? =P
don't know why, i feel sad about this but i still listen to them, heh

Forever and Always. There's no forever and always these such things urh?
this song is about a guy who said before he would love taylor forever and always, but in the end, they broke up =/
although it is like that, honestly, i hope that there is 'forever and always' between us =)
i love you! <3

finally

2009-10-14T20:46:00.003+08:00

omg, finally can online weyy
i miss all blogs, i miss jg !
anyway, back to normal d, except for exam's coming soon =(

me & him =) i love him
and i told my mum abt him today!!
she was like so steady and asked things
but problem is she asked me to tell my dad abt it =/
haiz, i dont know

now she still hasnt said a word abt it, damn nervous
i'm making him nervous too, hahah

and today, haiz, really sorry wey, i didnt mean not to find you, is couldnt =(
sorry, dont angry me weyy
happy valentine's day anyway =)
and do not divorce me!! =P

p/s : these few weeks are great! =D i'm really happy

beauty

2009-10-02T11:46:00.002+08:00

I WANT THIS!!!

RM2499 ONLY EHH

my dad just bought one for himself i think, damn, it is so cool, the colour is so great

i want one too!!

what i'm thinking is, can i tell him that i dont want a new phone anymore, just this laptop enough??

hellooo? it's cheaper than the phone!

how how how how????????

it even can fits in your jean's pocket!!

HA HA, no use also, who's gonna really do that??

heading to school in 30min

30-09-09

2009-10-02T01:07:00.003+08:00

that day was so special, some good some not good
i was told that tsunami was coming, and spreading and praying and i was scared and jye lan and i were exchanging our wills
i definitely will do what she want me to, but what i wanted her to do, NEVER DO THAT, I HATE HIM !
and here comes the good one, i gave a reply, and yeahh, i'm not single now =P
i'm thinking, should i put my blog as private??
and the worst one came too, i seriously hate him, seriously dissapointed with that, seriously pissed!!
i hate the way you treat me , the way you always act like, i hate you

29-09-09

2009-09-28T23:22:00.003+08:00

happy birthday jay jay!!

蓝色背景的天空
衬托着谁的美丽
白色云朵又经过
轻得像谁在呼吸

这样简单这样自然
我想我能为谁勇敢只因为你懂 yeah yeahh~~~~
阳光晒过的温柔是你给我的回应
很想了解你更多想让距离更靠近
我的期待像一个城堡
我想要宠坏你一丝一毫
请你别说 No No No!!

我爱上的唯一
我爱上的纯净
你所有姿态就是喜欢
像是舞蹈在世界心田

我爱上的唯一
我爱上的纯净
你所有的好多么重要
许个愿望因为是你

although we are not best friends, just classmates who sit together for one year

but we are like so ngam!!

hahaha, sing together, slap each other, argue together, siao together =D

i wont forget

2009-09-27T19:13:00.001+08:00

back

dedicated to

2009-09-22T01:07:00.002+08:00

people, is always greedy
but it is not their fault, it is the nature
can't blame

FOR EXAMPLE
you want something, well, like a coach bag, you say that it will be very enough for you to get a coach bag
and finally, you get one
but soon, you want LV bag, or Burberry bag

it is like that, you wanna climb higher and gain something more
i'm not talking about BAGS, XD
love also like that, isn't it?
you love somebody, but sadly, that person doesn't love you, she/he even rejects you and says that you both are impossible
you accepted and say that you will wait or just be friends, nothing more, it will be enough
and you two are friends, maybe best friend? okay, then you start to think about more MORE
always like that
it is not your fault, it is just a feeling towards he/she
haiz, i feel sad about that, this post is dedicated to someone who i love =)
it is not your fault, stop blaming yourself
and thanks for telling me, i will be there whenver you need me

* love love *

a long post

2009-09-21T22:33:00.009+08:00

woke up at almost noon, =P
it is holiday, okay?
doing nothing until my mum called that relatives were coming, what to do? haiz, just immediately went to clean up myself
my mum forced me to play mahjong with my grandpa and aunt cause she had to go out for a while, i was watching 'queen of no marriage'
i think we played for almost an hour, and i only won once, HAHA, not my money
but quite pekcek eh, whenever i almost game, my grandpa sure stepped in front of me one, grr

however, finally my mum back, relieved
but she called me to pack my stuff later on, =/
nevermind, i have to pack eventually pun
first, blankets and pillow covers, you know, those things, packed them into two bags and put them into a box then, my clothes, i packed some for my singapore trip into my luggage and others that seldom wear one, packed them into a bag too

tee hee! all packed!

third, was my bags, i got too many bags, but i only have one shoulder, or two shoulders? NO NO, should be two sides of one shoulder??
gahh, i make this simple thing turns into complicated stuff XD

and down these are my current favourites,

this is only a saja, hanya untuk pameran, too small for a shoulder XD

that's all for the packing stuff, very tiring one kay.

well, not really, XD, just listening to radio while packing, and V called, chit chatted for a while

cut the craps, we went to see our new house after dinner, damnn, i love my house =D =D

my mum keep mentioning about E&O feel =D

see?? even my bebe also adores his new house XD

nowadays I'm like a maid to bebe, carry him everywhere, god, he is damn so heavy, last time he was 5kg, now i don't know, maybe 6kg?? 7kg???

he is heavy!

i carried him to the house there and let him ran, stupid him, kept running on the mud there, his palms were fulled of mud

after cleaning up, i carried him back to car, beh tahan d, really very heavy, i was like going to break my arm

after editing on my phone, it is like so NOT OKAY, arghh, whatever

and taadaa!

let me introduce this, but sorry, i dont know what it called =P

DON'T SCOLD ME FIRST!

CAUSE i know its function! HEH

it is like a USB player, you can transfer songs into this thing, and tune it into a certain frequency

example : 87.5

then your car's player also tune to the same frequency, and IT WORKS!!

cool urh?

so that you don't have to burn into a disc and so on, this is just so easy!

i think it is uncommon in penang, at least for me, is it? i don't know

maybe some guys will say that ' i know that already kayy, i even got one in my car!, that stupid Brenda'

okay okay, never mind =P

but if you don't know about this, and you are interested but you don't know where to buy

CALL ME!!

i'll buy for you! =D

of course, with $$$$

it is cheap only, compare to here, maybe around RM40-60

not sure =P

anyway, i just saja do this 'advertisement', HAHA
but i still can buy for you, if you want XD

AND LAST BUT DEFINITELY NOT THE LEAST

SHIN CHAN'S DADDY IS DEAD =((((

how could this be?!

i'm not the super super fan of shin chan, but i love the comic

better than doraemon, XD

i used to be watched shin chan whenever i was down, it cheered me up

it must be a sad news for those fans, haiz

sunday

2009-09-20T23:33:00.005+08:00

my dad came back already last night, and i got a temporarily phone, it is samsung, touch screen
it is free, when my dad signed up a line in china there, they gave my dad this, not bad urh? touch screen kayy

woke up by my mum's call at 10.20am and asked us to get ready within 20minutes, we're going to see our new house, it is my future house =)
at batu ferringhi there, it was spectacular, damn, the sea view, damn chio =P

but the inside of the house, the furnitures all were quite old, but, who cares? it's going to rent to some people, not us who gonna to live =PPP

then we bought some coconut jellies to temple there, felt so peaceful there, even i burnt myself, haha, idiot
now, when im writing this post, i really think that i got nothing to post, just like all about houses and bebe XD
anyway, whatever, i dont care =D

then then, we went to our new house, going to move one, after painting, it looked really gorgeous, hahah, true
i love those tiles
and bebe likes our house too, he is always too excited when we reach there, haha

lastly =)

2009-09-19T01:50:00.003+08:00

well, it is holiday!
and i start missing my friends already =(
haiz, will not see them for one week, gonna miss them so much
these few days i was doing great, with my friends, it is great
laughing without thinking those stupid stuff
and i know that, some things that i cant change anymore, i'll try to accept, and start a new life
well, it really did hurt me, it does, too...
anyway, i'm okay =) really, to anyone who concerns
although this year happened a lot of things, mostly sad one, =P
but i still love this year =D
this year is cool, classmates really make my life happy and cheer me up, i dont want to change, i want to remain like this
but it wont, next year is coming, we will like almost all being seperated, haizz, sad thing
but, i wont forget this year, you all, =)

last thing, i want to say that, i care, i do care about everything, even you don't care, but i still care

2009-09-17T01:44:00.002+08:00

i think i really hate you, you fuck
opps, sorry if i'm rude, but i was going to say ruder, but i did not, whatever, dont know what i'm saying
maybe i was being an idiot who TOO cared about you, as a friend or a 'boyfriend'
you didn't even care, *calm down, im now really beh syiok, trying to calm myself down* , of course, you said you did not care also, you purposely to make me hurtyou fucking idiot
and i was the only idiot on earth who keep making myself down and moody and hurt, and YOU DIDN'T EVEN CARE!!!
wtf, wtf, i really hate you, V

updates

2009-09-17T00:52:00.004+08:00

watched this with jye lan on last sunday, damn funny and some parts really scared me, heh
must watch!

just got my streamyx repaired and finally can online back, life is quite weird without online but i guess it was better to go on without online too
online, i can see a lot of things, some good, some not so good, affected my mood
what i can say is, i had fun these few days =D
playing around, fooling around like an idiot, fighting and arguing with classmates =D that's cool

but the thing is, i think i really have to start to pay attention on my study, i mean, you know? i had not paid attention since the previous exam, TOTALLY NOT, especially math, physics, biology, chemistry, add math, sejarah!
homeworks not done, just copy from friends, as usual
i mean , what the hell i'm doing during those periods? i just chatting with my friends, and giggling and laughing, it's fun though =P

OKAY , now, now, stop doing this anymore, fine, at least after raya
i really have to work hard for this coming exam, but i'm really afraid about my add math, haiz,
why could i not pay attention in class? she is a good teacher, haiz haiz
OKAY, seriously, i have to read through add math during this coming holiday, seriously!
if not how can i pass my add math?!

but, anyway, i'm going to singapore on next wednesday with my bro and daddy, my mum's not going, she has to take care of the new house thing and also she has to take care of my bebe too!
im gonna miss him when i'm gone, and i'm coming back on saturday =)

2009-09-13T16:38:00.000+08:00

我的判断能力有问题？
XD
那你要好好指导我了 XDXD

2009-09-13T15:26:00.002+08:00

i never had a boyfriend, pathetic? i guess
damn, i hate =) , if you are pissed or angry, why still use =) ?!
you never tell what you thinking, i dont even know what you are thinking
love is not like that, i never love you, i just like
love, im still finding for it , heh
whatever, it is already passed, and i have to find my life back
i really cared about you, or whatever it is, but i guess it is all like a shit
my friends asked me to scold you or they take that job to scold you, but did you receive those? NOPE
you're like so childish, damn childish, you dont even know the feeling, maybe you think own me or own 'love' is to win someone else
but i tell you, it is NOT
i dont deserve to say 'love', so i just say it is 'like'
jealousness is not everything, is not, it is about the sense of security and trust
you dont understand, and i think you dont want to understand too
whatever, really whatever
but, well, maybe after you see this, you will hate me, but, i think, you already are, so, doesn't matter

what is happiness?
is when you are with your beloved friend and chatting with her/him, it is what i'm doing now
im at gurney now, sitting in front of a laptop, with jye lan
dont have to be so angry with that, but maybe she is now pekcek-ing, with her science
btw, good luck for tomorrow =)
i mean it, and thanks, for everything

thank you, my friends, for being my side for so long, help me to get throught all these stuff
i will appreciate you all, this is what i'm doing all along too, hee

T.T some updates

2009-09-11T01:40:00.003+08:00

couldn't manage to take back my sim card and memory card, arghh
stupid lim seng eng
whatver, HNG
but i really miss my phone, not that phone i mean, i mean is, having a phone
it was like so weird without a phone in my life, when im watching tv, feel like wanna sms to my friends or whatever
phone always gives me a sense of security, i had none when i was with him =/ SADLY!!
whatever
but it is quite good for me to not to have a phone right now, it can helps me to avoid something, or whatever, dot.
anyway, i still miss my phone =(

today is the last day of upsr, that means, haiz, sadly, unfortunately, i cant always online anymore cause my bro got his freedom back =(
and he will be taking this computer seat forever! grr
like today, i only managed to use computer at 1.43am, how sad it is =/

but today, since upsr already over, so we had a celebration, just a dinner anyway
at seoul garden, not the gurney's one, is sunrise there
damn nice, i love korean food =D

2009-09-09T21:48:00.001+08:00

P.S :

IM TOO BORED WITHOUT A PHONE!!

IT IS LIKE EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE!!

GAHH!!

AND DONT CONTACT ME IN THESE FEW DAYS, FRIENDS

09.09.09

2009-09-09T21:00:00.004+08:00

today i guess it is a very good day for couple, or whatever
a lot ppl get married today

but me? XD XD
actually not a bad day pun, quite syiok =P
today my class kena spot check, it was my first experience
and also very bad luck, i brought my phone to school today =/
i was shocked kay, when i heard one of those prefects said ' number 1 to 19 stand at here'
my heart was like pounding damn fast, really damn fast
due to my laziness, i was lazy to hide, cause they were really fast to get in here, no point is it? to hide
so, fine, i kena, they confiscated my handphone
not really sad cause of some reasons

that phone already spoiled, the screen looks sucks, and key pad also got problem
my dad is getting a new phone for me, ordering =D
i can get my sim card tomorrow, i can go to digi centre and tell them that my sim card is lost
my mum knew i always take phone to school, she asks me to, so, no problem!
8marks, nevermind, they make me to stay at s5c tmr, in case my results got me into s5b XD

just quite beh syiok cause prefects were checking my phone, hey, it is my privacy kay!
grr, but i couldnt do anything
and quite worried if my mum tells my dad, my dad warned me before, so =/
so, kind of moody during chemistry period
my classmates kept asking me whether i was okay or not, XD, quite touched
wen chien and pei en brought handphone too, but aiyoo, im the only one who kena
i was nearly cried when wen chien said sorry to me, gahh! so touched,she was like kept blaming herself, haha, cause she asked me to take one, but i was going to take too, so, doesnt matter

finally told my mum XD
her response was ' keh eh lah', in hokkien
then i told her everything lor, included i sms inside the class, nevermind one
she said she was going to school tmr to argue with them, saying that they have no right to confiscate my handphone and check my things
but i stopped her, later more troubles come to me, my troubles are already a lot,so, just stop it

anyway, she also going to school tmr, to ask the teachers to take out my memory cards and delete all my msgs, or maybe sim card too
i was so touched, cause my mum didnt blame me or scold me, she told me it is not a big matter, awww, and also promised me not to tell my dad about that, YAY
so, today's spot check was like an experience to me, =D
no point to cry for that =)

p/s : i guess my enermy for today is GCC, as you know who is that, dicipline teacher. just asked by my prefect to meet her during the recess due to i always late to school thing, she said that didnt want to see me again XD and, after recess, she came to my class already, and saw me again, HAHA

happy

2009-09-07T11:06:00.002+08:00

hee, im happy now, don't know why =D
suddenly like happy again?

for people who doesn't appreciate me, it's time for me to say 'GOODBYE, DUH'
and it's time also for me to appreciate those who appreciate me =)
i have to live happily, not like this anymore, i hate this week and last week
i deserve better! =P

friends, i love you all =)

2009-09-07T01:18:00.001+08:00

can i stop hurting ppl?!
im a bitch who doesn't know who to act as a bitch
so, im not a bitch
HAHA

2009-09-06T16:41:00.003+08:00

i'm lost, i dont know who can i trust, i dont know what is happening now
people just keep backstabbing each other in front of me, who should i trust??
no one, im tired, im sick of it
really
is that really hard for me to live happily? yes, it is hard

have made a decision, i will tell my mum all about those at night, IF i have to guts
but, i have to
should i go? should i change? should i just run away of these? CAN i?
keep holding on, i have to

yesterday slept at 4am, woke up at 1pm, feeling better
cried quite badly last night, but, dont know why, i always feel better after crying
and, i look back, find that it is like nothing matter
btw, thanks, wenchien =), to keep me a company to 3.30am
but, when something happen again, cry again, and keep repeating and repeating
arghh
this is me

2009-09-05T22:44:00.001+08:00

why you keep making me angry, or whatever is this?
great, you spoiled my mood, arghhh

=D

2009-09-05T20:33:00.003+08:00

no joking, i'm going to watch the final destination4 soon
gah! it is gonna be nice! i love this movie! although i've just only watched final destination3
and i just being told that jay swan already watched and ai lyn was going to watch tonight, i guess she's now sitting inside the cinema and enjoying the movie =/
im sad =(
going to watch it next week, MUST
hehe, the thrill is waiting for me

and today, my mood turned better =D
had fun in this morning, hee
but cant tell here, cause cause SHHHHH~
somebody might get killed because of this, =P

i finished gossip girl season2 already, yesterday watched until 2am
haiz, kinda regret, shouldn't have watched that fast
now i got nothing to watch, =(
gossip girl is awesome, and im glad that finally blair and chuck be together
they always love each other, always dont get together because there are always something happen when one of them propose to another one
was going to scold the editor of this story if they dont get to be together after 2seasons
chuck is so sweet, especially when he draws out all the voting cards of nelly purposely to make blair to be the prom queen
if you dont understand what i was saying, you better check out 'gossip girl'

it is nice

chuck, the sweet one, and dangerous one

nate, dan, serena, jenny, blair and chuck

you know you love me

xoxo

gossip girl

2009-09-04T22:41:00.004+08:00

gorgeous, aren't they?
they are all PINK!
and what will you think of if you see a lot of pink?
BARBIE! yay!
so this post i gonna use PINK colour =D

why suddenly talk about this?
cause, today, during biology lesson, jay swan and i suddenly talked about barbie
we were so excited !
i used to have quite many barbies, but, i still remember, my mum threw away all my barbies when i was standard 3
until now, i also dont understand why she did that, XD

so, after that talk, i immediately took out my book and added my new wish =D
i dont want a teddy anymore, barbie nicer
going to buy one, seriously!
well, wait until i got money, =P

wonderful? hell yeah =D, opps, did i say hell just now?
do barbies say hell? hell knows XD

but maybe this one will says, kindly scroll down more

im sorry about that =(

it looks really disgusting and terrible, yeewww

2009-09-04T00:59:00.002+08:00

J :

is this the end? i miss you, seriously. i have dreamt about you twice, included yesterday.

i dreamt that we get together again, i was so happy, you really mean a lot to me.

we were best friend, maybe it was me who started these, but i was really hurt at that time, i couldn't stand it anymore.

different stream, different class, different club, different life, different friends

i was lost, and i was scared, i was like not belonged to your life, you have friends in your class, but me? we can only chat during recess, so, soon, i was scared, and started avoiding, and came to this

maybe you still hate me until now, but i just want to say, i'm sorry, i'm really sorry, not because of what i did, is because of i lost my confidence on our relationship.

can i be so greedy to want you back? can i ask for a second chance?

but, it is okay if you don't, maybe i don't deserve this

from b

insane

2009-09-03T23:13:00.003+08:00

you're insane, but whatever, it is non of my business anymore
i'm not being cool or rude or whatever you think
argh
things just cant be like before again, and we have to accept the fact
the fact is, ( wil be written in my secret diary )
i really have nothing to say with this
i hate you

text

2009-09-03T09:34:00.004+08:00

to X:

I wish i have the guts to let you see what i've written in my book at school yesterday, i want to let you know about my feeling. Maybe i just think too much, everyone says so. But it is just so hard to not to think too much, cause you really mean so much to me, so much , so much. I've planned to send you a text too, but i haven't sent, i think, you'll never get that message. I'm scared, i'm really scared, sometime i feel like you and me are like so close, sometime you're like a stranger to me. Perhaps you don't care about me as much as i care about you, it's okay. =)

you're always my special one

dangerous

2009-09-02T23:43:00.003+08:00

i don't like these, i mean, who likes these?
gah, maybe it was me who started all these, and it caused so much troubles
these few days i just felt like couldn't eat, couldn't breathe, couldn't concentrate, just daydreaming

'i don't know why you come to school, you're just like cheating on the attendance' my friend even asked me that
I'm not requiring for a sympathy or what
maybe in every people's eyes, I'm like those bad girls, who betrays people, or plays people
but I'm not
I'm serious, for everything
maybe i shouldn't have started all this in the beginning, I've hurt and ruined many people's life
but what else can i say now? no more
i have destroyed two relationships, we were best friend, they were best friend
but now? no more, really no more
just because of my decision

suddenly problems just boomed out, a lot problems
glad that i haven't became insane, glad that i still can afford all these
but i don't know how to solve, got three, er, or four problems I'm having
all are just so important to me, and i don't know how to solve them
maybe I've just solved one? or haven't? maybe i just need times, the one who meant so much so much to me
i don't know what I'm talking about, just so confused

maybe as someone said ' I'm a dangerous "woman" '
haiz
can i run away from these? NO
and maybe i' m a bad person, i just never realised that

2009-08-31T22:55:00.001+08:00

maybe my life is not THAT bad? =D
i know what im going to do now!

29/8

2009-08-30T13:57:00.006+08:00

finally i went to gurney =)
had a good day in there, made new friends
before meeting Max, i went to apple store to ask details about iphone, heh, quite confused actually, a lot of plans

had lunch with Max, Sher-fyonn, Vivian, Sheng, Ash and Avienne at manila place, i like that place, had no appetite so i just ordered the guava, pineapple, apple, and don't-know-what-else fruit juice, like the first time i went there

chatted a lot and had fun in there, Avienne was really funny and she really looks like korean but sadly, no pictures taken =(
and i found out Sheng's same with me! PR! =D
i love his school, so good

after the movie, Max, Ash and i watched 'the aliens in the attic', hey! it was not a gina movie kay
Avienne and Sher-fyonn went to kia kia, hahaha
before the movie, i went to meet my husband first, hee, too long didnt see

so hardworking urh?

that movie was funny, especially Ricky =D
i was freezing after the movie, yeeww, haha

you know? i always meet the people who is the last people i ever want to meet on earth, having bad luck i guess
and the people i want to meet the most doesn't want to meet me, how pathetic it is =/
oh right, i met Larry today, it was really unexpected and saddening, you know i know

went to coffee bean and chatted

Ash really looks like Chad, from 'The High School Musical' one

but we got out of that place quite soon
because i was shaking, i mean, my body was shaking, god, there was really cold
Max and i chatted a lot, yeah, really a lot, Ash just sitting beside sms with his friend? or heh
thank god that Avienne came and accompanied Ash, so that i wont feel too sorry about that =)

when i was waiting for my mum to take me back, almost forgot to take my things back, fortunately
saw Kar Yin was waiting for her mum too, chatted a while then went for dinner
it was more than the bread kay, but still, had no appetite, wondered why

and last but not the least
thanks, i really understand a lot and make all those things clear, about everything, yeah, it is my everything

thanks, Geng Lin, really thanks, finally i told you, and thanks for listening all those thing which you were NOT INTERESTED in, XD
i was really touched when you wrote that, in your blog =), although you cant make it for tomorrow, hah!

untitled

2009-08-26T15:01:00.002+08:00

wtf, im crying again
and that problem AGAIN
is that really hard for me to go out?
i hate this family, seriously, all are strangers
and i hate this holiday seriously too
you just keep changing your words, and promises
guess you already forgot whatever you had promised,whatever, you dont care
one in shanghai, one in penang, wth
'i saw your friends crossing the road to gurney just now, do you want to join?'
wtf, I THOUGHT YOU DONT WANT ME TO GO GURNEY OR HANG OUT
shit, my tears keep rolling down my cheeks, but no one sees that
what you want me to do then? staying at home every day and doing house works everytime? or studying and doing revision everytime??
yeah, that's what a STUDENT should do
AND, you scared me to join 'those people', what is 'those'?
gangsters? drug addicts? i'll join, in my dream!
smart, so what? get in C class, so what?
for my future, i understand kay!
I UNDERSTAND, i do study!
who says that people who goes to gurney does not study? argh
if you let me out, i wouldn't have to lie to you, never lie
it is an IF, whatever
just 1year, 1 year then i can get my freedom

just have to W.A.I.T

teehee

2009-08-24T10:50:00.011+08:00

today went to genglin's house, dated someone, but couldn't make it =/
reached there around 11am, and how stupid, the web cam was something wrong, couldn't use =/ =/

later huey ming and jen ming turned up, then started our cooking, not our honestly, my mission was only eating and washing the dishes, I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO COOK, grr
we cooked spaghetti, i supplied the spaghetti! heh, it was going to be expired very very soon, just one week =P

i admire genglin got a big bro, so good , i used to have one too, =/ =/ =/
watched them playing desperate housewives' game, it was boring

went up to her bro's room, HAHAH, i never expected that you guys love those type of music, just couldn't stop laughing
i brought hannah montana the movie over there, but, spoiled after we had watched about 30minutes =/ =/ =/ =/
so we watched conan, i brought to there too, heh, it was someone's one
what happened next?

taadaa!!

disappointing only XD

after watching huey ming's very funny video, i started a topic, hmmm, XD XD XD XD XD, not going to say here, definitely might be killed by ****

before i went back, my bee came there too, for 30minutes

he was lanci, i mean, he is lanci, sombong, need people to serve him, and that person is me, when my mum's not around

he kept peeing all around genglin's 'garden' XD

huey ming, genglin, jen ming

and brenda's here =)

brenda's everywhere !

that's it, good night

gah!!!

2009-08-23T13:17:00.002+08:00

im sick of it, sick of you, sick of this!!
damn!
okay, this post gonna typed in chinese, to express more details

有时候你们可以变得那么开通，有时却很不可理喻
我经常为了这个事情哭，有时真的很想和你们吵起来，但我没有勇气
失败
有哪些物质又怎样？没有自由，我没有自由
这让我变成一个陌生人在这个家，我从来不会告诉你们我的感受，我所发生的事情
破碎了，到无可挽回
h1n1? 就死了算了吧

stupid

2009-08-20T22:43:00.004+08:00

just viewed his facebook, saw a lot of pics, obviously, all were taken recently
can you EXPLAIN that?
whatever, if i could just say it is REALLY whatever, i just couldn't
hmmm, i was really in good mood today kay? but, whatever whatever

currently listening to 'brown eyes' by lady gaga, nice =)

upcoming post : about today? XD , nothing much to say actually, just met a pretty taiwanese girl

fail or pass?

2009-08-19T12:15:00.004+08:00

today's my piano examination, was so nervous
yesterday last minute did my aural, especially thanks to renee and juan wen, my 'seniors'

heading to the venue

reached bayview hotel at 10am, i prefer E&O hotel, more chio, hah
very very nervous as the time passed by, i guess everyone also the same right?
hard to not to be nervous, cause the atmosphere there was so, wuu~, XD
got a call from my dad, also called me not to be nervous, but just so hard!
okay okay, and it was my turn
Ms. Alexandra _____.. forgot ( but not the Michael one, too bad, genglin)
well, my scales were sucks, pieces got some slipped notes,
sight reading were bad too, no expressions, wrong notes, all wrong wrong wrong
and aural, =( , i hope i got the cadence and the period right, about the singing part, i guess it was bad too
so, conclusion?
fail, must be failed, sure one, haiz
whatever, just a exam, but cost a lot =(

saw maegen when i was finished, her hands were freaking cold!
as nervous as i was =/
as i said, everyone is the same

cute right? hahaha

~~fail~~ or pass??

first video

2009-08-17T05:39:00.004+08:00

sonata in D minor, Kp.9

Adagio : second movement from Sonata in C, WoO51

these are my pieces for my coming grade6 piano examination on wednesday

i know i played not so well, i just hope that i can pass

i'm just grade6, what do you expect hurh? also havent grade6, =P

tiring day

2009-08-15T20:56:00.000+08:00

whoa, if i'm that girl, so cool! dream on

today was our school's cross country run, so called merentas desa

reached at school quite early, but like that ai lyn them also perli me, 'wah, like brenda this type of ppl also so early come to school'

yes, it sound like perli, and it is the truth

this is me, 06201, hmmmm

everyone was just got nothing to do, so shirley and ai lyn just kept taking photos

hooi peng and renee

shirley
okay, im the fairest one, hahah

sprayed the anti mosquito spray then 3,2,1, get set go!

ai lyn promised that she will slow down and walk with me, but but?!

just not more than 7minutes we started to walk, she bumped into a friend and straightly walked with her, hmph!

such a 'good friend' you are hurh?

i was like a waking dead, haha
and nireji

it was so easy, to reach the first destination

and that time, i've made the wrong decision, i decided to go up to the hill

i even called huei lan, who did not want to go up at first, to go up too

sighh

when we started to walk up, gosh, it was so steep!

it was very very hard and tough for you to move a step, okay, i'm exaggerating, haha

but it was really steep kay

i'm a loser, i did not manage to climb up, i only managed to climb up until half, okay, not even half of the hill

i was feeling about to vomit kay, i didnt eat anything in the morning

excuses! haha

so i gave up, heh, luckily got qiao yun and a friend i hardly know, yu lan, i suppose?, to keep my accompany, so that i wont feel too sia sui

but also same one, qiao yun and i kept saying we are loser and kept 'aiyo aiyo aiyo' when we sat on the bench and those 'winner' successfully went up and passing by

especially those i know, some people i just didnt expect, and they succeed

nevermind, at least i was better than ai lyn, jye lan, hmmmmmm, no one else =(((

fine, they were the winners, but some i just dont know who they are, sorry, i just grabbed

right, and even GENG LIN also managed to climb up to the hill! arghh

nevermind too, at least i got time to talk with my husband =)
and dont divorce lah, i love you =D
i know you jealous, teehee
you kept making me blushing =P
SELAMAT HARI RAYA.. hahahahah

this is maegen, i will definitely miss you badly after a week, and im looking forward for your cookies too
you probably wont see this, if you see this, i will be dead for sure =P

piak**

2009-08-14T22:32:00.000+08:00

okayy! im going to slap myself =P
for the previous post, and im NOT going to mention which one

today is the best day of this week ? or what?
one thing,
i hate liars! especially that one! hng! it was all a TRAP!!
and it trapped me into this, unbelievably, i confessed
fine fine, it was me, damn nervous

today is the best valentine's day too!
without my husband! heh heh!
someone is going to be jealous! =D

okay, as you can feel that, im excited! im very very excited =PPPPP
no more emo!!!
yahhHHHH!

and i have no idea what i'm writing about

STILL remember me?

2009-08-13T21:21:00.000+08:00

'We were good.' His voice is so low and dry it's barely audible, his face full of mingled love and sadness as he nods. 'We were really, really good.'

And now tears are spilling down my cheeks; my stomach is wrenched with pain. I'm almost weakening. I could fling open the door; say i've changed my mind.....

I'm just gonna to move on, eventhough i know it's hard, it has been almost a month! A bloody month that i hardly breathe whenever i remember our conversation, the way you called me, the way you treated me .

There are a lot of things remind me of you, a lot. What you had promised to me, but did not do each of them. Dont promise people too easily if you might can't do it, it might hurts people.

I hope that i got amnesia, so that i can forget those things, as if it never happened before. With that, maybe few years later i will get to know you through a party or whatever, and as the fairy tale, we can live happily forever.

But, the truth is, i do remember, life's just so funny and dramatic. who knew that i will _________ you ______ ? but it did happen, and it was just too fast, and it never alarmed me before it happened. How pathetic it is?

Last thing, we were good, and i still remember you, my _____

today

2009-08-12T22:33:00.000+08:00

sorry, today just dont have any mood to pick up any calls and sms

btw, my phone is inside my car, purposely? nope

guess this week is not the best week, got a lot of things to worry about

next wednesday, really dont know what to do, my piano's exam, but now im just act like nothing is going to happen, no practice

so, my mood is not good now, and i dont know what to do

say some happy things, brenda

bebe! i feel happy and comfortable when im with him, =P
the only one and the 'special' one, god, bloody hell, im emo

nevermind, i'll let the emo stuff to be the last part of this post

this! my lover! i dont care if you say it is geli, nehh, she was conteng ing my table and i was the one who cleaned up after all!
left is xue ni, and right is huei lan, and the hand is jay jay's
and this is ai lyn, who was busying with the invitation card stuff, hmm

ready? im going to start

i always thought that i'm strong enough for this, until today, the book im reading recently 'remember me?' , yah, there is a person, same name with you, hmm, what to do..

you're the very important person to me, i will never forget about you, but i guess, you've forgotten about me?

have been thought of thousand of the excuses for myself,i guess they didnt work?

i dont know why im posting these in the half middle of my 'talk', just she called me to post it, then i'll just post

the last thing, i'll never have a relationship, it is a deal, and i will keep my deal until the date

i got a husband too! =D

p/s : i really dont know what i was typing about, it is called as 'luan luan lai' yeah, and my mood turns better after i saw a horrible + funny picture! HAHAHA

p/p/s : i wish you are here, but it is just a wish, that will never comes true

bad day

2009-08-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

i had a bad day today, almost bad
cause i turned good after recess, thanks to who hurh? XD
nevermind, tmr, i will be fine, brenda is back =P

family

2009-08-09T21:37:00.000+08:00

just got a msg from my dad, she knows, but i think not everything, of course
thought of spilling all those to her, but, i just cant do it
i'm sorry

=)

2009-08-08T21:45:00.000+08:00

finally, i understand
all those will be the best memories of mine, will never be forgetten
i will just remember the nice one
it makes me happy =)

i know, im the lucky one =)
to have that

p/s : tomorrow, im going to die, going going...and 19th, i will be dead

a pay back

2009-08-08T02:29:00.000+08:00

"Vincent ♥ says: Go on! "

he called me to post about him and may chee, im sorry, may chee
really sorry

and he is shy to see that

untitled

2009-08-08T01:59:00.000+08:00

Wait, I'm wrong
Should've done better than this
Please, I'll be strong
I'm finding it hard to resist

So show me what I'm looking for

Save me, I'm lost
Oh Lord
I've been waiting for you
I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Oh Lord

tagged

2009-08-06T21:06:00.000+08:00

what's your.
1 Last beverage: orange juice
2 Last phone call: this morning, from vin =)
3 Last text message: to vin, again =D
4 Last song you listened to: i gotta this feeling
5 Last time you cried: last thursday

have u ever:
6 Dated someone twice: Nope.
7 Been cheated on: yesss
8 Kissed someone and regretted it: No.
9 Lost someone special: yess
10 Been depressed: yesss
11 Been drunk and threw up: Nope.

three favourite colour :
12 grey
13 white
14 pink

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15 Made a new friend: yes
16 Fallen out of love: yes
17 Laughed until you cried: i think no
18 Met someone who changed you: yes
19 Found out who were your true friend: yes, finally =)
20 Found out someone was talking about you: yes
21 Kissed anyone on your friend's list: nope
22 How many people on your friend list do you know in real life: 22
23 How many kids do you want to have: 2
24 Do you have any pets: yess! bee!
25 Do you want to change your name: No.
26 What did you do for your last birthday: celebrate with family in shenzhen
27 What time did you wake up today: 5am =P
28 What were you doing at midnight last night: Studying
29 Name something you CANNOT wait for: to be graduated
30 Last time you saw your Mother: 1minutes ago
31 What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: the friends i knew before
32 What are you listening to right now: 'show me what i'm looking for'
33 Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: nope
34 What's getting on your nerves right now: nothing
35 Most visited webpage: blogspot
36 Whats your real name: brenda ho
37 Nicknames: hmm, a lot. the recently one is given by wen chien =P
38 Relationship Status: single
39 Zodiac sign: capricorn
40 Male or female : Female
41 Elementary?: ping hwa's
42 Middle School?: pcghs
43 High school/college?: pcghs (pity me)
44 Hair colour: Black
45 Long or short: Short
46 Height: 163cm
47 Do you have a crush on someone?: think so
48 What do you like about yourself?: im optimistic
49 Piercings: yes
50 Tattoos: havent, heh
51 Righty or lefty: righty

FIRSTS:
52 First surgery: yes, when i was in primary
53 First piercing: 01-01-2007
54 First best friend: first? no idea
55 First sport you joined: swimming?
56 First vacation: when i was borned, from singapore to penang, haha
57 First pair of trainers: no idea

RIGHT NOW:
57 Eating: nothing
58 Drinking: nothing
59 I'm about to: take a bath
60 Listening: to 'viva la vida'
61 Waiting: for a impossible

YOUR FUTURE:
62 Want kids? : yes
63 Get Married? : sure
64 Career? : of course

WHICH IS BETTER:
65 Lips or eyes: lips
66 Hugs or kisses: hugs
67 Shorter or taller: medium
68 Older or Younger: younger
69 Romantic or spontaneous: both
70 Nice stomach or nice arms: nice arms
71 Sensitive or loud: sensitive
72 hook up or relationship: relationship
73 Trouble maker or hesitant: hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER:
74 Kissed a stranger: no
75 Drank hard liquor: no
76 Lost glasses/contacts: sure
77 Sex on first date: no
78 Broken someone's heart: yes, i think
79 Been arrested: havent, hahaha
80 Turned someone down: yes
81 Cried when someone died: havent =(
82 Fallen for a friend?: yes, always

83 At the end, you need to choose 15 people (girls n boys) to be tagged and list their names.
-jye lan
-vin
-geng lin
-ai lyn
-jay swan
-shirley
-hooi peng
-wen chien
-elyn
-hian khin
(ten for good)

august

2009-08-02T01:30:00.000+08:00

was it real or ONLY a dream?

the truth is, i had a dream, and it was good
but when i woke up, i realised, it was only a dream, a best dream i ever had
i wish i can dream that every night, although it is only a dream,but it cheers me up, it makes me happy
i will never tired to tell everyone about my dream, the best dream,
i will laugh and smile when i tell ppl about the story, i know, because i tried, for twice, i still felt so excited when i repeated the same story eventhough i just told once before ten minutes
but, in the other hand, i have to understand, it is only a dream, a dream.......................

=(

2009-07-31T19:09:00.000+08:00

where are you, jane?
im super duper sad now =(

quick update!

2009-07-29T00:31:00.000+08:00

quick update : (spot my ipod)

wont be online anymore (hope that it is really anymore) until i finish my exam.

hope that i can finish my study (especially the stupid sj) before exam, can i? depends .

depends on my mood

and bebe got bitten by a leech yesterday, damn disgusting, so now there is a wound on his body =(

p/s : bloggers! did you notice that the colour of my ipod shows on the picture above is actually the same colour with the colour of the box 'publish post' which is on the page of 'edit posts' one ? fine, just craps

p/p/s : my dad dhl-ed a couch small wrislets for me yesterday! it was a asia's version, of course, only sold in asia. ER, well, honestly, not very impressive, i mean the bag. =( what i wanted all out of stock =(((((((

p/p/p/s : now is late, waited for someone to turn up but he didnt =((((((((

campur campur

2009-07-23T23:58:00.001+08:00

18th july :
so many events being squeezed in today, bon odori and school's concert
well, it was not THAT many though =/

at first, i thought my day was going to be plain and dull, but!
thanks to ELYN love love =)
she sms-ed me saying that she was coming to my house, but ended up, we went to gurney pulak
thanks uncle for fetching me to gurney from my house, and sorry that i mistaken Evergreen hotel to G hotel .
OH YEAH, and sorry to elyn too, for that thing, the thing i mistaken and made you so nervous

we watched Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

well, honestly, sorry to say that, i think it is not nice
i didn't understand what the movie was talking about, neither did her
the only interesting part of the movie i think was only about Ron and romance thing
Ron is cute, especially when he was poisoned, damn funny
this movie was disappointing me, i put so much effort to try to understand, but, still, it didn't work

this looks better

here is elyn, sitting in her car and sms-ing with her secret partner

after the movie, uncle fetched us back to school

i really had no idea why i went to school although i didn't buy the ticket, it was just only to cover the lie, to my mum =(

later my mum with my bro and my bebe, came to take me to bon odori

it was our first time went to bon odori, included bebe!

people were playing with him

met up with Ai lyn, Ying ying and their friends

it was quite fun for me, for the first time

but one thing was the crowd, 60,000 people were there, imagine that

we met up with ai lyn's cousin, wei jie, what can i say about him arh, i felt like kind of familiar when i first met him, XD, no idea

yeah, i bumped into nan guang too, was same daycare with me when we was standard6, i miss those days, seriously, best days in my life

so surprised when he called me and couldnt believe that he still rmb my name

im sorry that i forgot yours at that time, but now i rmb! =)

so what? maybe i'll never meet you again, maybe, arghh, moody again

ai lyn's water balloon ( i should have got one for myself =( )

this is the only picture of me, uncovered face, ai lyn (dumb dumb)

the pictures above, mostly, are from ai lyn's blog, i grabbed them =P

i know she wont mind, person with mental retardation wont mind one, i know =D

and i know you miss me badly, but trust me, i miss you badly too =(

for all my friends and classmates =)

i won't care anymore, i'm not as cheap as them

whatever you want to say, say it, it's okay for me, really

the important is, i dont have any wrong

vina =)

2009-07-23T17:42:00.000+08:00

yeah! today did not go to school again
cause i got MC ! for two days, ytd and today, why not?

just now, vincent came to my house, for about 10min, XD
anyway, thanks for bringing me all the movies

all those temptations =(

shyshy

rmb? im sick

and i dint realise that you were wearing converse XD

like this the most =)

vin, you are better,
im sad again =(

p/s : i miss my classmates, especially jay swan, huei lan, turtle, ai lyn and indigo =)

my 'PDA'

2009-07-22T22:12:00.000+08:00

SEE! what i've found today, it's my 'Personal Digital Assistant'

well, it is just my NDS, Nintendo D.S. (no idea)
and this is just one of the games only, has no GPS, no WIFI, no CAMERA

as you can see that, it shows that 'i'm sick'. helloooo? im sick, im really sick, =D

eh, trust me kay? im really sick, not act, not fake XD

but today seems better, but sadly, i havent got a bloody MC, grr

do you have any idea why i covered the entire words using my finger?

it is, because, PRIVACY mann

sigh, i should have edited the reminder 2, saying that i dont know what to say

what am i saying ? whatever .

and i keep sneezing =(

A surprise gift

2009-07-19T23:35:00.000+08:00

woott! i got this!

from my dad, damn surprise =P

he suddenly called me, yes, from shanghai, asked that whether which ipod i want cause someone which i dont know who is it, sponsor for it =D

cool, yeap, my friends knew, ipod's on my what-i-want list, but i never asked my parents to get one for me. why? cause i always spoil things, especially electronic gadgets

my mp3, walkman, camera, laptop, portable dvd player, phone, etc, yeapp, all those =P

so i dint dare to ask for one, BUT? guess what, i got one now!

heee, actually, i haven't got it yet, maybe next week, yay!

AND, he is going to buy me a phone too! going going going!

next post : bon odori =P

what a disgusting day

2009-07-16T21:14:00.000+08:00

seriously, i hate worms

SILVER VALENTINES

2009-07-14T21:54:00.001+08:00

don't be mad lah, you =(
if you sad, i'll sad too
and im sad, cause you're sad

happy valentine's lahhh!

i wanna that, can you buy for me ? heh

i very wu sim wan kay, what i wanna give you is........

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RAIN RAIN GO AWAY

2009-07-11T19:58:00.000+08:00

Rain, rain, go away
Come again some other day
We want to go outside and play
Come again some other day

Classmates

2009-07-11T15:17:00.001+08:00

mid year exam's result is out

i got 11th in my class, out of 38people
and 79th in my form, out of 3xx/4xx? no idea

im happy with that, but, im quite sad for that too
that means next year we wont be in the same class anymore, hooi peng definitely goes to s5b next year
and me? s5c, i dont want to go to s5b
huei lan, ai lyn, xue ni, jay swan, shirley, hooi peng and renee, i wish that we can get into the same class next year
it will be more fun to have all of you with me, we can prepare together for the class item =)

GOOD LUCK!! and work harder in the next exam yeahh! =)

Penangites

2009-07-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

Do you think Penangites are friendly?
I DO

like today, i went to a kopitian at air itam area there
called 'zhong nan' i think, i went there to buy my dinner
i ordered my drink to take away to a uncle , who i think he is the boss, cause the owner of a kopitiam always sit inside the counter, isn't it?
after i ordered, we chatted for a while, he was so kind! XD
it was me who started the conversation, cause i dint know what is the meaning of 'liao'(hokkien)
YEAPP, i dont know how to speak hokkien, but i understand hokkien, heh, how pity for a penangite who dont even know how to speak hokkien =(
it was my dad! he dint allow me to speak hokkien, but my mum and dad communicate through hokkien =/
but, actually i know a little bit, a bit a bit onlyy

i was happy to chat with him, although it was probably just less than 5minutes
he made me felt the friendliness of human, my mood was just so good after talked with him

you never tried it before? well, you should try it next time, taxi driver also can, but it is harder as penangites seldom take taxi, right?
but not bas driver, they wont even bother you, hahah

only to you =)

2009-07-09T00:33:00.000+08:00

SURPRISE!!

to JG :

it is 12.33am already, and someone havent realised that already passed the limit =P
someone was so excited when talking of those, XD
yeah , i know
wife is always important than my beauty sleep =(

OOPSSS! someone knows already! =(
good night

chocoholic !

2009-07-08T22:23:00.000+08:00

tell me !

who doesn't love chocolates?
especially girls, some people even say that chocolate is girl's best friend, besides DIAMONDS of course ! =D

but however, sometimes girls hate it, cause chocolate makes most diet plans fail

did you know that?
Chocolate is said to benefit the circulatory system. It has also been suggested that chocolate has anti-cancer properties, acts as a brain stimulator, aids concentration, lowers blood pressure, prevents coughs and acts as an aphrodisiac (opps! watch out!).

however, * point below *

you know i know what i mean =P

RITTER SPORT!

rum and raisins hazelnuts, it used to be my favourite chocolate

BUT, since that day, my dad bought me 10packets of this, i dislike it

i think i ate too much and felt like uncomfortable, perhaps it is TOO sweet for me

FERRERO ROCHER!!

i love it !

not too sweet and not too bitter, some just too bitter, and that's my mum's favourite

she always buy those with cocoa 70%, extremely bitter for me

and one of the main reason i love it probably is because of i never get enough, how unfortunate =(

ONE OF THE MOST EXPENSIVE CHOCOLATES!!!!!

Chocopologie by Knipschildt
Cost: $2,600 per pound*

€2,173

£1,491

Can$2,992

Aus$3,500

Rs114,816

Where: Norwalk, Conn.

Knipschildt Chocolatier was founded in 1999 by Fritz Knipschildt, who got his culinary education as a chef in Denmark. The most-expensive chocolate he sells--a $250 dark chocolate truffle with a French black truffle inside--is available on a preorder-only basis. It's made of 70% Valrhona cacao, which is blended into a creamy ganache with truffle oil. The truffle is then hand-rolled with a dark truffle on the inside and dusted with cocoa powder.

*Conversions are approximate.

-http://www.forbes.com/

you dont have to read anything above except the price

goshhh

if im not mistaken, it will be rm10,000 per pound

1 pound = 453.59237 gram

it would be too extravagance to buy it =/

save money, especially with today's economy

Family day

2009-07-05T22:47:00.000+08:00

my family=daddy+mummy+brother+bebe+me!

but daddy is in shanghai, now today just 4 of us, like always

we went to our new house after we woke up, bee followed us too

like yesterday, he was excited too, the workers already had plucked down a basket of rambutans, and one of the worker, that is my uncle told us that the rambutans were not nice

it was a lie okay? we tried , damn manis, but nvm, we gave them all

my grandpa then plucked some rambutans using a long stick with a knife, they were soo yumm

Oh, are you asking me about the cat? NOOO!! we couldnt find it!! grrr, no idea where will it goes, the roof? but it is only a small kitten, haizz, too bad

here, let you see the layout of my new house

after that, we went to my auntie's house, my bro wanted to see my auntie's baby

honestly, i dont like babies as much as bee, dog is just cuter than babies, that's just my opinion, maybe i would change when i grow bigger, who knows?

thennn, we went to gurney, of course, we put bee at the house, we watched Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen

it was amazing, i would say, but sometimes i felt a little dizzy, cause it was so complicated to transform

and, megan fox was so sexy, rightt? agree?

lastly, cause im tired now, did you realise that one of the transformer actually has the same name with my bee?

yesss, it is called the bumblebee, but his owner always calls him bee, =P

p/s : to vincent, if you think it is really not worth it, just give up, dont have to hurt yourself like that. It is painful, i know, but you have to try, right? if the one you care a lot doesnt care about you, it definitely hurts you. There are lot of friends outside there, so no point to continue this type of relationship, rightt? i hope you can get over it fast =)

a wonderful saturday

2009-07-04T23:06:00.000+08:00

hey, it's me again

im so going to change my blog, cant wait! *giggle*

today was so fun, all was about my bebe
at noon, i brought bebe to my piano teacher's house there

he was actually waiting me to finish my piano lesson, how cute!

my friends just kept saying how adorable was my doggie, (sorry if you dont think so)
i was so happy, oh, forgot to say, my teacher has a dog too, but he was a coward, (shit shit! i forgot his name!!)

he dint dare to play with my bee, and my bee arh, very naughty wan, kept chasing him, and the dog kept running away, so funny!

as you can see in the picture 1, the dog was so scared of my bebe, though he was so bigger than my bebe

after my piano class, we went to our new house, we just got the key from the previous owner, but we still need few months to make it renovated
it was huge (for me larh) and the happiest 'creature' to enter the house was bebe, he was really happy man, hahah, you should see his face when he was exploring the house, damn excited

there was a rambutan tree in the garden, we are going to pluck all rambutans tomorrow morning and perhaps cut off the tree after plucking, how cruel (i know)
while eating rambutan, i heard ' meoow' sound, guess what?
it was a kitten in our garden, it lives inside the pipe, so pity
we dont know what should we do to it, should we keep it as a new pet? or? SPCA perhaps?
i actually showed the kitten to bebe, but he was like a blind, couldnt notice the kitten no matter how hard i had been trying, so i gave up, haha
will bebe bite it or bully it when we keep it? i dont know man =/
but definitely he wont eat it, yeewww!

here, my new room, hahaha, yeah, i know it is hard to see the room through this pic

katy perry! i love her! i want the shirt ! how cute!!
but a lot ppl compare her to lily allen, SO WHAT? (not pink =P)
lily allen also not bad, why compare? they are different, rightt?
i love ppl who dont care anything but insist on something they like, like them, and one another example!
the new pop icon,

LADY GAGA!

cool onot? =D

last but not the least!
the icon of .................. *shaking my head*

am i rude? no no no, i do no harm, i just point at myself, haahahaha